shout your lungs out ..

Today is the 1st month 2ND week 5Th day .

cant really sleep . yesterday went out with my baby girls , went aman suria eat pan mee then headed to meet up with ester , arifff , hariz & liyana in ou then chill around , around 9pm i left ou because going home to get ready & going out again was damn no mood & everyone are in a confused situation ..can anyone please tell me , why on earth a teenager need to think about so many things ?!

Sometimes i really wish & i pray hard to get back this relationship so badly.Sometimes i wish that is just a dream . which just gonna teach me a lesson.Sometimes it just hurts like mad ,when the past kept repeating over & over again in my mind. Sometimes i just miss him so badly & i dunno who to talk to .Sometimes i cried like mad & i cant figure out why am i crying . izzit because of him or myself ?Sometimes i wanna know so badly whether do i still meant anything to him ? although all this time i go through everything by myself ..Sometimes i really hate him till death because of what he did ..Sometimes i just cant help but fall back in love with him which i told myself a thousand times that he is not worth it at all .Sometimes i just wish that i could die , so everything gonna be fine , but i know that it might make no different .Sometimes i feel that life is miserable which everyone agreed with it ..

I'm sorry, i know you read my blog , i tried calling you but i cant get through you ..I've changed my number . i heard alot bout you ,hope you're alright . hope after you know the reason that you've been finding & wondering all this time you'll feel better . Thanks for all this time , i know that you've been trying really hard fixing things which missing out & i really wish that i could accept you as apart of me but i cant make it and the reason is not because of him is just that i would like to concentrate on my studies more & i doesn't want involve in relationship now . i know that there's this girl out there been waiting for you for quite some times & she's all the time around you ,so yeah .. take care . loves .

sometimes is not what you want is the things that you would get .